Wednesday, November 11, 2009
QING! I am actually quite excited about you coming back! Haven't seen you in awhile!
Lah poo-ed at 1:51:00 PM
So angsty. Another post but this is overdue. It was meant for yesterday.
I am truly disappointed by how our friendship turned out. I knew you tried, and who am i to say you didn't when i am always guilty of not making enough effort to keep in contact with my friends.
And honestly, i don't know why the hell did i actually bother with your business yesterday. I could have just offered some words of advice to your poor distraught bf and that's it. So much for hoping i am still the kor you listen and trust.
There were several times over the past year when i told myself this is it. I will disappear from your life since you don't quite bother about whether our friendship exists or not. Seriously, if you had put even a bit of effort to keeping in contact, i would have felt it. But nope, there wasn't any. As a friend, you pretty much were disappointing.
So last night i was feeling helpful and nice, and thought since i would be going out, i could actually drop by and listen to your side of the story, maybe help straighten things out a little or something. So i smsed you.
Your replies guessed my intent and i admitted to it. Then you chose to run away. Utterly disappointing. I thought you were taking some time to reply so i left it at that. Hours later i attempted to call but there wasn't any response. Up till now, my simple sms didn't get any sort of response. To me, it's a situation i find common in my teenager years. Sorry but it's really juvenile.
It's also really selfish because you chose to ignore me without even considering our friendship and trust that we held. And to think i could have simply not bother at all. My intentions were always good and i just felt that perhaps there were some misunderstandings.
Now, i don't really doubt what he told me. And what you have done is really unfair, really disrespectful, and really low as a gf.
Lah poo-ed at 12:57:00 AM
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Sorry for not saying anything after that. I was contemplating but i got reminded of the many times when i regretted saying something after i said it.
I'm not good at consoling. I'm not the type whom you can get much console out of.
My good friend once said this a long time ago, that i'm a person who will say things straight and honest to you. It's not going to sound nice. Neither do i guarantee it won't hurt. But it will be the truth. I'm not the kind of person who sugarcoats my words just because they will sound nicer.
Perhaps it's my upbringing. I don't remember getting much consoling when shit happens. Most of the time it's nevermind, try harder next time. To me, the 'try harder next time' struck harder than the 'nevermind'. It's always ... less of the dealing with the emotions, more of the providence of solutions. Hence, i was primed in the way to provide solutions when shit happens, and to deal with them without expecting any consolation from anyone. You can call me heartless, if you choose to see it that way.
I believe more in providing a solution and ways to achieve it, in this case the reattaining of happiness or the decrease of the feelings of sadness, rather than the all too often "don't worry, things will be fine". I do hope for understanding.
But more often than not, i get reminded by the people around me that there's always an emotional aspect of humans which we all have to deal with. It's not all about logic and outcomes, and to think i'm studying psychology. Shucks.
Trust me it's not easy. I would have said anything, but it will definitely jeopardize what i have now. To me, a relationship is a relationship. If it works, stick real hard to it. If it really doesn't, say too bad and move on.
Lah poo-ed at 11:02:00 PM
Sunday, November 08, 2009
Today went to wf's friend's house to play poker. Focused more on Ivey's optimum return style of play, and it was a good afternoon.
To KZhang since i'm honoured by his presence here: I still can't believe i folded my cards! Haha don't give me another chance to bust you! =p
Went down for DC meeting after that, and many changes are taking place. Ah well ... i've just a bit time to offer what i've got. Got to make the most of it.
Then headed down to Marina Barrage for Ter's bday celebration. Pretty nice windy place. Quite surprised to see so many people there. I thought it would be too ulufied.
Supper at Geylang. Shiok Dimsum.
Damn shagged. Zzzz
Lah poo-ed at 3:42:00 AM
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
Haven been busily distracted by the upcoming PS3 games. Youtube can really burn your time!
A few titles will definitely be part of my collection once they are out. Good reviews plus "my-type-of-game" certainly means parting some of my time with them.
First up, Final Fantasy XIII.
This is a no-brainer for FF fans.
But i wish they would keep to FFXII way of combat ... that one whereby they had a line linking up the character with the enemies. Else the battle screens will be damn repetitive.
Next, Heavy rain.
This game is sick. Suspense. Thriller. It isn't really a game game but more of a movie game kind of play style, but its so real. When your character dies, he/she's dead! Then you assume control of another character.
Third, Assassin's Creed 2! Coming out this month i believe.
AC 1 was a let down for some. Reviews said this one corrected the mistakes so i am predicting it would be pretty good.
So far i'm keeping tabs on these. Bought Fifa 10 recently due to the good reviews. Trust me, it's hard getting used to playing it after so many years of winning eleven. But for those WE fans out there, i'm sure there were times when you felt that it didn't feel realistic being able to outdribble so many defenders. Fifa 10 in my opinion has that realistic feel. Although i'm still bemoaning how hard it is to dribble past players now. It's more about positioning, running into spaces and taking your chances now. And i haven't scored from a corner yet. That's the downside cos heading seems really weak.
Lah poo-ed at 7:10:00 PM
I haven't been able to sustain the motivation i gathered from my awakening last week. So this week's revision is a little behind.
Went to watch This is it. And i almost exploded before the show. Thanks to the gf for understanding me so well. =)
And the recent topic of maturity in the aspect of marriage got me worried. I am like the most UN-matured (i shall refrain from using childish) guy around. You see, i was glancing at someone's convo (cos i was bored) and her topic revolved around her bf. But she mentioned "he's NOT MATURED so i am still considering", and well ... i haven't exactly knew what females look for in marriage partners.
Especially so after my afternoon rant to the gf about us being divorced cos we haven't seen each other for too long.
But anyway, Happy anni babe. =)
Lah poo-ed at 7:00:00 PM
Sunday, November 01, 2009
Just caught FF ep 6 and well ... there are the wow parts and definitely potential for development. Being an avid fan of Lost has brought me great expectations for FF, especially when there are so many reviews like these ...
"From the beginning, the show’s producers have been vocal about avoiding comparisons between their show and Lost, and who can blame them? Lost is a cultural phenomenon—why set yourself up to lose the expectations game? But ABC has been promoting FlashForward as a worthy successor to Lost, and just in time as the tropical mind-bender prepares for its final season next year. And if the goal was to tamp down Lost comparisons, maybe it wasn’t such a good idea to cast not one, but two cast members of that show (Sonya Walger and Dominic Monaghan).
But so far, Lost it ain’t. The pilot wasn’t bad, but it also wasn’t great—certainly not of the quality of Lost, which remains one of the best pilots in television history. The premise is the star of the FlashForward more so than anyone in the ensemble, and three episodes in I haven’t become attached to any of the characters yet. I’m mildly interested in Demetri Noh (John Cho) who doesn’t have a vision during his blackout, and fears that he is destined to die before then. Aside from him, I don’t care enough about any of these people to be emotionally invested in what happens to them six months hence. And so far, all the show’s questions of fate and choice have felt more like watching an undergraduate philosophy-class discussion than a compelling genre show.
Unless it shapes up over the course of its run (as shows often do as they find their footing), FlashForward will not be remember as the successor to Lost, but rather as the successor to Heroes, a show that has made a fine art of audience attrition. It seems like a lifetime, but it was only three years ago when Heroes was the hot science-fiction thriller du jour. It even managed to garner nods for best drama series at the Emmys and the Golden Globes. Flash-forward to the present, where its ratings are continuing to free-fall in its fourth (and quite possibly final) season, and the people still watching seem to be doing so more out of defiance than anything else. It’s this fall from grace that the producers of FlashForward need to be paying attention to. As Lost and Heroes demonstrate, the setup is easy. It’s the execution that trips you up."
And yes ... my friends who are still watching Heroes know i've stopped watching it since Season 3 after when i thought they lost it. It's not only me but ratings have confirmed it. And yeah till date i haven't been emotionally attached to any FF character. (Haha still remember my entry on the demise of Charlie in Lost?) I guess i've often taken Lost for granted ... expecting that all shows should be like that good.
To all the people who have said that Lost has 'lost' them, and still asking why are they still lost, seriously you haven't watched the show properly. I cringe each time i see on the net how someone writes how boring Lost is. Then what is exciting? Baywatch?
I quite like what this person wrote ...
"Flashforward is a TOTAL copy of LOST. Pilot episode of LOST starts with Jack waking up after the plane crash. Flashforward has Mark waking up after the car crash. LOST has Jack (a doctor) running around helping people, FF has (a FBI agent) running around helping people after their respective crashes. Lost has a random polar bear. FF had a kangaroo hopping down the street. LOST has flashes of people past. FF has flashes of people future. LOST has Kate not wanting to talk about her past (murder of stepfather), FF has Olivia not wanting to talk about her flash (sleeping with another guy). Not to mention the Oceanic popsters in the background(as someone already pointed out).
I LOVED LOST when it first started and I still watch it, but not with as much excitement. I watch FF(DVR it) but it's not a MUST WATCH show and I don't see how they're gonna have more than 1 season of it. Is everyone gonna black out again next season and another investigation into why they did?"
Honestly maybe subconsciously i noticed those stuff ... but i wasn't thinking so much about the similarities. What he said is pretty true, i don't know how FF is gonna pan out for a few seasons while still getting viewers hook onto it.
I'm pretty sure they are gonna loop in suspect zero, D. Gibbons, the blue handprints people ... Maybe if it still ain't solved in the pilot season, then perhaps in accordance to the novel, quantum physics is gonna be brought in for the next season.
But i really do hope its gonna be something really BIG. Something BOOMZ. Else it will soon fizzle out.
Lah poo-ed at 7:56:00 PM
Friday, October 30, 2009
Billy Kopp is such a boomz ... to lose 20++ million and not end up as one of the November 9. Shocker.
But it's really a good feeling to see Darvin Moon as the major chip lead. 56 million! Omg ... Have been rooting for Ivey ... and it's gonne be interesting to see how he performs with the 3rd lowest stack.
Lah poo-ed at 12:30:00 AM
Saturday, October 24, 2009
So. I've gotten my full tank today too. Waited half an hour for it, and while waiting in line, I was reading my article, thinking abt this islandwide phenomenon, and the implications..
The shell station at my house had its queue all the way until the cross junction to jalan kayu so I gave up on that one and went to the siglap one.. It seems like the snaking long queue is a common sight everywhere and drivers are accustomed to an almost stationary left lane near shell stations. But at $1/litre, how much are they earning from this promotional strategy? One which they proclaim as giving back to the society?
It's also a sight to behold as a day when buses stopped and passengers alighted not at the busstop but at the 2nd left lane. Quite funny.
Even aux police was out at work directing traffic.
Haha anyway 2 days ago I had an awakening. Went to class and the tutor had an exams discussion. Realized how much I didn't know ... so it's study study study now!!
Lah poo-ed at 4:26:00 PM
For those who are familiar with Improv Everywhere, whose flash mobs have brought much surprise and joy to the lucky people around ...
It's about time that Singapore finally does a decent one ...
And just for kicks ... the latest Improv Everywhere mission ...
Lah poo-ed at 2:23:00 PM
Monday, October 19, 2009
Last night i caught Flash Forward ep 3 on tv ... and cos i missed the first 2 episodes, i went to look for them online.
Having followed Lost and Prison Break very closely, FF contains certain similar elements. For example the time traveling aka the visions ... just like those of Lost ... with the air of mystery over what actually happened. Suspect 0 acts like Jacob in Lost ... one of those unknowns. And that wow factor at the end of episodes is felt in all the episodes just like Lost. It is familiar to Prison Break because of the wall/board with all the information that Benford looks like. Very similar to Scofield's opening act in PB, and also towards the end when they were organising all the information they had.
The starting of FF's episode 2 reminded me of Heroes's constant use of the Earth globe picture.
Well ... only 4 episodes online now. Still got to see how it pans out ... and i've got some questions like surely if EVERYONE blacked out, a lot of the elderly would have died from the falls ... even profession like being a cook would have got you burnt to death if you fell straight onto whatever's cooking ... the amount of deaths and destruction that day would be gigantic, except that i don't feel that from the show.
Lah poo-ed at 3:36:00 PM
Friday, October 16, 2009
Something happened in school today that got me and everyone else quite pissed. Well ... if you are not good in teaching students, meaning if you do not have extremely good skills in educating students, it's really fine. I've seen much worse lecturers than you.
But if you create a mid term test which is really confusing, i won't hold my thoughts against you. You gave everyone a page for each question to write, which i can safely say there wasn't only me who was shocked by it. Nevermind.
Then your questions are VAGUE. Mind you, it ain't only me but many others who commented. These comments are REPRESENTATIVE of the student population.
And we've been taught since sec sch to come up with explanations and reasons for what we write ... and you seriously dare to come up with an answer script asking us to just list points with each HALF a mark? Since when wasn't a point listed with explanation one mark? So if each question is 6 marks, we roughly would know how to balance out.
But hell no ... it suddenly appeared that we just need to list out the 'relevance to singapore' and each one will earn us half a mark and because 'non-relevance to singapore' is 'HARDER' to think of, it would be one mark per point. O_O
WTF is this marking scheme. No one told us of anything like that. You didn't specify anything either before the mid terms.
And one very obvious fact is this, you told us after the test that it would be returned this week. This week's lecture you told us that it would be postponed because you need to moderate the scores. Apparently everyone did badly.
Hey, there's no such thing as everyone doing badly unless the test is freaking hard, or its just plain confusing. You and the 2 tutors have personally said while going through the answers that the test is really very hard.
Well, my friend consoled me by saying that don't worry, there's a bell curve. Oh yeah then is my tertiary education going to be screwed up by some lameass lecturer who can't set a proper mid term test?
We ALL fear for the final paper. Really.
Especially when you use the words "you DEEM" in the question, yet gave us no answers that require our opinions. And yes we all know that NUS is situated in Singapore, but it doesn't give you reason to set 2 out of 5 questions asking specifically in the Singapore context. What happens to our foreign friends?
When that girl behind me in class today mentioned out loud that it's a really flawed marking scheme, i added on by agreeing to that statement.
And all of you think that by moderating and adjusting the marks, it would be fair? Trust yourselves to be psychology educators. When a paper is confusing, it takes away a part of students' performance during the test. Imagine if the paper wasn't confusing, these students would have done probably a lot better because they wouldn't need to deal with the internal struggle within them.
You would say it's all individual differences. But i would say that what you took away wasn't returned in full fairly.
Lah poo-ed at 10:36:00 PM
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
These days ... it's all about life.
A funeral and a wedding ... and another one to come ...
And also how suffocating life can get.
It's true you feel like a zombie when you are forced to read through something you don't have much interest in. Blame CORS. Blame the world! "It's YOU!"
The recent lack in confidence is a bitch too. Not even talking about the screwed up body clock.
It's too bad when sometimes i take things in my life so seriously ...
Ah emo momo ...
Just let me get this 2 page essay over and done with.
Lah poo-ed at 9:42:00 PM
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